In about 2006, it was often getting hard to breathe during work and sleep. No matter how hard I tried, I was not able to breathe in, and I have jumped out of bed at suffocating at midnight. In such a case, when I received remote Johrei from my mother, I was always relieved immediately. From about June, when standing for a long time, I had a backache and breathing became painful. I felt languid and ran out of breath just walking normally. And I was overcome by extraordinary sleepiness I couldn't withstand even during working, and kept sleeping all day long on a holiday.
One month later, the same symptom appeared in the middle of the night. I went out for fresh air while swaying on my feet, but the symptom didn't go and I verged on panic with fear that I might become unable to breathe. So I was taken to the hospital and was told that I had high blood pressure and a slight angina. I received medicine and went home, but didn't recover from the suffocation even in the morning. The cause was unknown at another hospital either, and I decided to take temporary leave from my work.
I felt uneasy about being alone at home and stayed at my parents' home and got help from my family. My mother gave Johrei to me when I had a fit, and then I felt better, but I was gradually losing my appetite and also could just barely walk. However, the examination showed no abnormalities in my heart. The doctor said that my stomach was just inflamed, and that if I had an angina at my age, it was rare enough to be able to present it at an academic conference. Although the doctor also asked if I suffered from stress, I did not mind because I always lived at my own pace.
One day on which it was over a month since I took temporary leave from my work, I felt a shade better and so went back to my home. As I was cleaning my room, I felt ill again. I was not able to drive a car to the parents' home where it took only about 5 minutes by car, and I had my elder brother come to pick me up. The scruff of my neck was twitched that has never experienced before, I felt heavy in the head with pain, and I became full of fear and anxiety. The doctor was absent, and then we returned to the parents' home for now. For the present
By chance, it was the day Ms. Takafuji, a chief, would come to my home. I waited impatiently for her to come, and received Johrei soon on her arrival, and then told her for the first time that I had been in poor physical condition. She spoke kindly, "Please call me anytime when you don't feel well," and so I was relieved and felt reassured very much. Not knowing when the symptom assailed, I was not able to leave my parents' home till then. I felt a little happier after having told Ms. Takafuji. When I was feeling down with anxiety, she kept listening to and encouraging me at the same time as she gave me Johrei.
Because I still continued to take medicine at that time, I kept feeling lethargic and began to be irritated with small sound gradually. I could never calm down one week later, suppressed myself who almost began to cry, and was screaming within my mind, "Help me!" crouching down. I thought about dying in such terror as I almost went mad. My mother gave me Johrei, and I calmed down somehow. Then a medicine was too dreadful to take any more from the next day. And I learned the fearfulness of harmful effects of medicine by experiencing powerful side effects, quit taking all medicine, and decided to turn to Meishu-sama and Johrei for help.
Ms. Takafuji said, "The time surely came to be able to believe in God and let's overcome together this purification." And I was invited to worship at the sacred ground (the headquarters of Kyusei Shinkyo). I was reluctant to go out, but she said kindly, "There is no need to worry because you go and worship at the sacred ground." I worshiped and returned home with peace of mind. Thanks to her devoted support and care, I, who had got to worry about myself, gradually began to feel thankful.
Then Ms. Takafuji took me to the church for worshiping and the teacher's home of the subbranch for the first time. While being given Johrei by the teacher and listening to her talk, I sincerely hoped I wanted to be relieved from suffering. And I, who had been too scared even to go out alone, came to be able to drive myself to the teacher's home out of an ardent desire to receive Johrei. I was more than happy to feel a lot better and be able to go home by just receiving Johrei before God (altar) from her and having a talk with her. I realized I was getting better at a very fast pace. I felt once again the importance of praying to God for protection.
The ups and downs in condition has also slowed down. I came to be able to get over as I told myself, "It is all right. Meishu-sama will watch over and protect you," even if I felt sick at the place where I went. It was also increasing little by little to be able to do for myself. And I was so pleased and it was encouraging that I was invite to apply myself to services of God and was given care with one thing or another. I received Johrei every day and was supported by many people. By the grace of God and thanks to all of them, I recovered health, so I was able to return to work after four and a half months' absence. I am really grateful to Meishu-sama and Ms.Takafuji, who welcomed me warmly.