In January 2006, I caused a traffic accident. Since then, I became depressed and felt nausea and dizzy while driving. My hands and feet shook, so I had to pull over my car and take a rest very often.
I was diagnosed as ‘depression’ and started taking 12 tablets of medicine per day. When I took them, I was temporally stable, but as their effect wore off, I was too anxious or nervous to talk with people. As my condition got worse, the medicine increased to 30 tablets, and the doctor warned me not to drive
Gradually, I developed anorexia, lost my appetite, and vomited soon after I ate. Vomiting did not stop while working, so I was often absent from work. I could not sleep enough for days. I was depressed everyday. I did not have any hope and purpose to live, yet I did not even try to pull myself out of the situation.
In early August, I received Johrei from Ms. Abe. That night, I was able to sleep without medicine. As I received Johrei several times, I started to think of quitting the medicine.
However, if I did not take it, my heart beat violently; I suffered from a state of being excited all the time; I could not sleep. I wanted to take the medicine, but then I could think “leave it to God”.
In September I received a Mihikari-sama. Then, my mental attitude was gradually changed to positive one, and I felt like driving and returning to work. I was given warm and encouraging words from a teacher of a church, “You are man. You must try hard.”
I quit dying my hair because of its dangerous effects on the body. I decided to drive to church by myself. The symptoms of the depression easily came out in bad weather, but on the day of driving, the first time in a half year, I could drive to the church without any anxiety under the blue sky. I gained a little confidence with a very happy heart. Whenever I headed to church, I received protections that stopped raining only while driving.
From November, I was able to go back to work. Little by little, I thought about helping others, so I conveyed this faith to my family, friends, and acquaintances. When I conducted Johrei to an owner of a clothing store, the pain in my back was relived. Moreover, my younger brother was allowed his entry.
When I realized, my physical condition was completely improved that I even did not feel the symptoms of depression.
Since I am a salesman, I have chances to visit individual families and conduct Johrei to many customers these days. Some people are glad of Johrei in tears, which make my days very enjoyable and fulfilling.
I am very grateful that the orbit of my life has been changed into the bright direction in a half year.