My grandmother on my mother’s side had brought up and watched me instead of my mother since I had lost her at a young age. She also died when I was forty five years old. About that time, whether it overlapped with menopause, I fell sick and was diagnosed as “depression.”
I had never imagined myself to be mentally sick until then, thus had no idea which my part was ill and saw an internist, a gynecologist, an otolaryngologist, an ophthalmologist, and a neurologist in a row. It was exactly doctor-shopping. Then, I finally got to the department of psychosomatic medicine and was diagnosed so.
It was such hard days that I even wanted to die. Recalling it now, I was so gloomy as if considered how I could cry every day like that, and always thought all things into negative. I doubted why it did not improve even though I took medicine regularly and was in hard days holding anxious feelings. In like that situation, I heard about this curse from Ms. Uchida.
Up to that time, I had assumed that “disease is cured in hospital and with medicine”. I was given a lot of medication and was taking them in relieve. In contrast, I was anxious and dubious about not to be well however a lot of medicine I had taken. This belief was very shocking for me in like this situation.
I became well day by day by Johrei as if to be peeled off thin paper and broke off long dependence on medication. There were a lot of other graces that I received in the period.
She was bullied in her high school and was truant. When she was at home, I mediated Johrei through the door as many times as I could because she disliked my entering her room. When she could go to school, I sent and met her there and did Johrei to her walking into the school from behind. Also, she tried hard and could graduate the high school.
Further, I had an accident, but it could be done with a scratch on my leg even though my car was wrecked. I was told from a police officer, “It’s very unusual to be lucky like this.” I was also given the great grace that latter handling of the accident progressed smoothly.
Before I met the belief, I had nothing but complaints or dissatisfaction, “Why only I …,” against things not to go the way that I wanted. However, these days, in accordance with teaching, “Human beings depend on the notion”, I have been no longer worried nor darkly thought as before.
I would like to raise my hand of prayer and Johrei, entrust it to the god and send the light to as many people as I can.